Im sorry you are struggling with the same thing. It really sucks feeling like you dont have control over yourself
- The first part is mental.I sort of take a similar approach to it as the 12 step programs do for addicts. First thing that helps me is to learn to acknowledge it. When Im having a depression moment or bipolar moment it helps to first acknowledge that the way you feel and what you are experiencing is a result of a chemical reaction. This helps to separate yourself from the feeling and to stop any dwelling or rationalizing by thinking of anything that could be possibly upsetting you which makes it only worse. “Change the things you can change and accept and adapt to the things which you cannot” Which often means finding positive things or ways to use the things that you cannot change.
- Then I think about it and how that feeling is simply a result of a imbalance of hormones or whatever and not a result of some other outside thing. Or that the intensity of what i am feeling is not a result of x that put me in that mood. Then I accept it. I accept that this is how i feel and try to come to terms with that horrible intense emotion and not try to fight it..cause that struggle is one that cant be won and it sucks. Then I tell myself that it will pass and I can make it through it just like I have in the past and try to find something to focus on. Its hard and takes practice but the importance of this is repetition. With practice you are able to almost turn around the way you feel. Changing your frame of mind is possible it just takes lots of practice and training yourself to believe what you think.
- Also being mindful of things that trigger your bipolar helps a good deal. Avoid things that trigger anger and depression and take inventory of things that trigger that happy part of bipolar. those things that spark that great feeling. Use them to your advantage.
- Break things apart. I learned this in anger management when I was young. When you find yourself in one of those moods when one of those moods is triggered by something.. specifically the rage or the depression follow these steps. Stop and acknowledge the feeling and acknowledge that it is a result of bipolar/depression. Accept that feeling. Think about what it is that triggered you and why it triggered you. Strip it of value. Explain to yourself why its not worth feeling that way over and its not a big deal. That often helps to strip away the natural bad feeling and leave you only with what the bipolar or depression has added and makes it easier to move on. If even only giving you a breif moment of calm and clarity so that you can find motivation to dive into something else that will help distract you.
- The other parts are pretty simple. Eating well, exercising (thats a big one), keeping my living space clean and organized (this really does help), doing things that make me feel productive and keeping busy. Its insanely hard to get up and do something when you have crippling depression and I understand that.. but if you can manage to find the strength to get up and do something it gets easier. Put on music that makes you feel energized, organize your things, make a list, go for a walk, do something that makes you busy or occupies your mind. try not to have too much down time. take time for yourself obviously but dont give yourself a chance to sit and do nothing.
- finally surround yourself with positive people and understanding people. Keep your environment a good one.
also i want to try agnus castus which is a natural plan supplement used for many things that is supposed to create progesterone naturally and hopefully affect bipolar the same way pregnancy does and if it does it should be great. I havent tried it yet.